Where's ME...

I live like you
I see like you
I love like you
I hate like you
I think like you
I breathe like you
I wanna be like you

But here and there's only You,
Where's the Me that I wanna Be.

I still wanna live like you
I still wanna see like you
I still wanna love like you
I still wanna hate like you
I still wanna think like you
I still wanna breathe like you
I still wanna be like you

But I wanna do it my own way like you once did and still do.

THAT's JUST LIFE AFTER ALL: Yes, No & ME

THAT's JUST LIFE AFTER ALL: Yes, No & ME: There has been Good There has been Bad There is Yes There is No There was Acceptance There was Rejection But there is & always wi...

Yes, No & ME

There has been Good
There has been Bad
There is Yes
There is No
There was Acceptance
There was Rejection
But there is & always will be
MY LORD who's been & always will be with me.

So those who accepted me for what I am
I appreciate, respect & thank you from the bottom of my Heart;
As for those who rejected me for whatever reason be I thank you as well,
For it us you because of whom today I am a stronger ME.

Just Timepass...

Wow, nice one... 2 + 1/2 posts in one day, now THAT's SOMETHING...

QUEEN

Just saw the movie QUEEN and loved it. The movie revolved around Rani (queen) the protagonist is a typical Indian middle class punjabi girl who is preparing for her wedding with her love Vijay who decides to cancel the marriage just 3 days before the wedding.

Taken aback and shattered she decides to not giving up on her dream of seeing another country and leaves for Paris on her honeymoon alone. There she meets Vijayalakshmi (Lisa Hayden) a free spirited waitress at the hotel she's staying in who also has a son with her boyfriend and befriends her, she is exposed to a whole new world where you can express what you feel, do what you want, be what you want to be without any judgement from anyone. This is where her journey to finding herself, her voice starts.

From there she leaves for Amsterdam and goes to a Backpacker hostel where booking is made for her by vijayalakshmi. There she comes to know that she has to share a room with 3 boys. Initially hesitant at first she decides to go for it. What follows is the most amazing example of friendship between 4 people from different parts of the world.

Her journey to find herself, to get her voice back is nicely portrayed with an unconventional and the most happening ending for me.

Yes, this is in many ways a true story and holds true for all of us in some way or the other. It's not just Rani's journey that's being potrayed, it's our journey. We don't and we shouldn't feel bad or blame ourselves for someone else's mistake.

Being a girl, a woman is our pride not our weakness. So its fine to be me, to accept me as i am and live my dream. That's what the film tells us, and i completely agree with it.

We don't need to change ourselves for anyone, but change our self if and when required for improvement not anything else and be completely acceptable of ourselves and our strengths and weaknesses, at the same time try to strive and improve where needed.

Everyone of us is a QUEEN, and we need to find that queen within us ourselves.

 Kudos to the director Vikas Bahl and the rest of the cast and crew for such an amazing film.

COLLECTIVE MENTALITY vs MORALS

I have been having a good time lately, thanks to the job i have been enjoying immensely.  Being a trainer that too a Language trainer is not a easy task but its all worth it nevertheless.

I have started developing some political views or rather started being more politically aware as opposed to before.

I think i had mentioned in one of my last blogs something about being a responsible citizen/netizen, the reason why i am bringing this up is because just yesterday i saw an example of irresponsible citizen.

After office hours i was out shopping with my colleague/friend on FC Road, the hub of collegians and all things happening. Had a yummy special mix dry fruit kulfi and was hanging around while she was busy looking at some stuff.

Naturally i didn't want to throw the stick off on the road and was looking for proper disposal when i asked the shopkeeper of the shop we were at for a bin to which he nicely replied that i could throw the stick off on the road where the two wheeler's (scooter's) were parked. I just looked at him saying WHAT and he casually goes on to reply that "how to save some money its better to ask the maid to throw the trash on road rather than pay the sweeper to have it properly disposed." I just went on looking at him, not believing my ears and he just continues to say "Yeh rastaa hi humara kachre ka dabaa hai" (this road here is our dustbin). To which i sarcastically replied "yes why not, continue to make it dirty" and the nerve of him, he was ready to defend himself had i pursued the matter but chose not to.

I can't get this incident out of my mind. To most of you this might be a small matter, a trivial thing but for me getting a closer look on this collective psyche of my people was an eye opener.

There have been many programs, campaign's of awareness one of which includes Aamir Khan's Satyamev Jayate, which is an absolutely outstanding take and views on the nitty gritty of the country, which have raised awareness to some extent.

But all this is futile if people just want to go on the way they want, treating everyone and our beloved country as trash for which govt employees and resources are available to make do with it.

We all want change but choose nothing to do about it. If another does something we try to drag them down. Why this psyche?

Are there no morals in people even for something as small or big as this?? We say we were once a great nation and now nothing can be done to achieve it, but what if everyone of us strive to be great not in money or just our jobs but in our individual duties towards our city, our nation as well.

While in school we are told about our Fundamental Rights and Duties as a citizen, out of which we just retain our Fundamental Rights doing away with our Duties because maybe someone somewhere is there to fulfill that.

Collectively that's our perception/psyche/view. But there is no one anywhere if we have our Rights we have our Duties as well which is only our responsibility as a citizen. If we want something we must have the balls to work for it, towards it.

So in essence if we want our Country to be great we have to work for it, together, as the people of this Great Nation, where no one's common or ordinary we all are uncommon, extraordinary more than we ourselves realize.

It's not just the RIGHT Govt or Candidate which we need to Vote For, its also about bringing the RIGHT change in our Thoughts/ views/ psyche as an individual, as a citizen of OUR GREAT NATION.

Let me be the change i want to see in my Country.

TO BE IS TO HOPE...

So, had an almost fight with my brother, as he's not very happy with my choice of study center. But, i held my ground and kind of let him know that i was going to stick with my decision, no matter what the result. I don't think he liked it very much, i mean i know he loves me, wants to protect me and wants the best for me.

But my dear brother, i wish i could say it upfront so that you know and you could understand, that i love you, respect you, believe in you with all my heart, i have always looked up to you, looked at you for suggestions and advice's whenever i have needed one. But that's the thing, i have always been dependent on you or other loved ones to show me the right way, i have never chosen one. I have always depended on you all to tell me the difference between right and wrong, always left the most crucial decisions on you all so that i can be comfortable. This has got to change now, i have to stand up for my own good and fight for it if i need to, and this can only be done once i learn to get uncomfortable and make decisions for myself, take charge of myself.

I have blindly trusted my loved ones around me and always doubted myself, for once, i have to blindly trust myself so that i can gain the confidence i need, the lesson that i need. I hope and pray that no matter what everything turns out for the best.

My dear brother, being me, its always difficult to say it out loud what i am feeling, hence this post dedicated to you, is to let you know how much i love and respect you, how much i don't want to ever let you down, but for my sake do understand, that i need to do this, to have something of my own, decided by me, executed and implemented by me.

Its time to change, its time to stand up, to be me, and for that i have get out of that "too comfortable zone" and be uncomfortable, to make the decisions that i need to and go through with it. Not to mention that i realize that this is a three part courage and one part fool decision, but that's what life requires of us at times.

One thing i know is that no matter what today is, tomorrow will be better. And one thing that i will always have is, to thank god is for such wonderful family, extended family and friends without whom i wouldn't be here today. So, THANK YOU BABA, LOVE YOU.