So, had an almost fight with my brother, as he's not very happy with my choice of study center. But, i held my ground and kind of let him know that i was going to stick with my decision, no matter what the result. I don't think he liked it very much, i mean i know he loves me, wants to protect me and wants the best for me.
But my dear brother, i wish i could say it upfront so that you know and you could understand, that i love you, respect you, believe in you with all my heart, i have always looked up to you, looked at you for suggestions and advice's whenever i have needed one. But that's the thing, i have always been dependent on you or other loved ones to show me the right way, i have never chosen one. I have always depended on you all to tell me the difference between right and wrong, always left the most crucial decisions on you all so that i can be comfortable. This has got to change now, i have to stand up for my own good and fight for it if i need to, and this can only be done once i learn to get uncomfortable and make decisions for myself, take charge of myself.
I have blindly trusted my loved ones around me and always doubted myself, for once, i have to blindly trust myself so that i can gain the confidence i need, the lesson that i need. I hope and pray that no matter what everything turns out for the best.
My dear brother, being me, its always difficult to say it out loud what i am feeling, hence this post dedicated to you, is to let you know how much i love and respect you, how much i don't want to ever let you down, but for my sake do understand, that i need to do this, to have something of my own, decided by me, executed and implemented by me.
Its time to change, its time to stand up, to be me, and for that i have get out of that "too comfortable zone" and be uncomfortable, to make the decisions that i need to and go through with it. Not to mention that i realize that this is a three part courage and one part fool decision, but that's what life requires of us at times.
One thing i know is that no matter what today is, tomorrow will be better. And one thing that i will always have is, to thank god is for such wonderful family, extended family and friends without whom i wouldn't be here today. So, THANK YOU BABA, LOVE YOU.
But my dear brother, i wish i could say it upfront so that you know and you could understand, that i love you, respect you, believe in you with all my heart, i have always looked up to you, looked at you for suggestions and advice's whenever i have needed one. But that's the thing, i have always been dependent on you or other loved ones to show me the right way, i have never chosen one. I have always depended on you all to tell me the difference between right and wrong, always left the most crucial decisions on you all so that i can be comfortable. This has got to change now, i have to stand up for my own good and fight for it if i need to, and this can only be done once i learn to get uncomfortable and make decisions for myself, take charge of myself.
I have blindly trusted my loved ones around me and always doubted myself, for once, i have to blindly trust myself so that i can gain the confidence i need, the lesson that i need. I hope and pray that no matter what everything turns out for the best.
My dear brother, being me, its always difficult to say it out loud what i am feeling, hence this post dedicated to you, is to let you know how much i love and respect you, how much i don't want to ever let you down, but for my sake do understand, that i need to do this, to have something of my own, decided by me, executed and implemented by me.
Its time to change, its time to stand up, to be me, and for that i have get out of that "too comfortable zone" and be uncomfortable, to make the decisions that i need to and go through with it. Not to mention that i realize that this is a three part courage and one part fool decision, but that's what life requires of us at times.
One thing i know is that no matter what today is, tomorrow will be better. And one thing that i will always have is, to thank god is for such wonderful family, extended family and friends without whom i wouldn't be here today. So, THANK YOU BABA, LOVE YOU.
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